No, it's alright. I haven't gone mad (well maybe a little). It's at this time of year that a writers' mind tends to wander down memory lane and have a look about what they have achieved in their writing year. It's time, before the whirlwind that is Christmas sets in, to take stock of what you've done as a writer and to look forward to where you want to go.
It doesn't need to be done in any depth - just a cursory glance at your out put and in put - what percentage of articles that you pitch actually become commissioned? What percentage of those actually make it to publication? Could you be doing something to up your output and publications?
There are always ways we can try and improve our writing success. Yes, much of that will be down to the writing time we have, our motivation levels and general life (it does have a tendency to get in the way). But, as writers, our job is rise above all of life's little irritants and frustrations and get on with writing in what little time we might have.
So, while the wind howls outside and the rain (or snow) falls, it's time to get your writing records out and take a look at where you stand, where you want to get to and what steps you need to take to get there. Small steps are fine! As long as they are travelling in the right direction.
Happy stock taking!